Solitude at Last…

I finally had my much awaited spiritual retreat this afternoon. But wait before that, I must define some terms. A SPIRITUAL RETREAT is time spent alone with God. It is similar in many ways to the spiritual discipline of quiet time, in a much larger and more solitary scale. To retreat means to withdraw, to snatch one’s self from the clutches of everyday activity, to set apart a time and place for uninterrupted prayer, reflection, journaling, Bible reading, and realignment .

I left home after lunch, bringing neither wallet nor cellphone. I turned my phone off, just to be sure. And so, armed with but a watch, alcohol, a sarong, Bible, journal, and a ballpen, I marched towards the UP Lagoon (or Parke ng Kalayaan). I wanted to go to the spot with the fallen tree, however, the grass cutters nearby  made it impossible for me to ‘feel alone.’ So, I was left to a spot just 10 meters away from the small cement sign which bears the dedication for the lagoon.

As I settled down, I found myself singing the song "I offer my life", one of my favorite songs that I find hard to sing because of the commitment it entails.


(Verse 1)
All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I’m making them yours

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I’ve been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

(Verse 2)
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I’ve been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

(Bridge)
What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we’re living
That’s what we give to you, Lord

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I’ve been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I’ve been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life
Lord I offer you my life

*ambigat diba?

After that, I read a few Psalms, and then started writing things in my journal, listing down the things (and people) I am thankful for, and the things I would like to change. Then came the hard questions, especially the crossroads that await me after graduation. In the end, I had to make sure that my priorities were set, and committed everything I wrote down to God, that I may be accountable for the things I wrote.

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My original plan was to go home right after my spiritual retreat, yet about 40 minutes after, I found myself playing frisbee for the first time, until the sun decided to say goodbye, taking my energy along with it.

Still after that, I had a short chat with people form the fellowship, walked, ate isaw, walked some more, chatted some more, and walked home some more until I reached home.

All in all, I found multi-faceted rest, even while running around and catching a white disc with bare hands (one of our playmates told us it’s good practice if ever we get married to someone who like to throw porcelain plater around the house). Rest after all, is the absence of creative work and pressure.

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2 Responses to Solitude at Last…

  1. Lorah says:

    Congrats kapatid!!!gagraduate ka rin?

  2. benjie says:

    hindi po, 2009 pa ko magtata pos (sana…) just looking frward to what awaits after the academe…

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